September 13th, 2008
last updated 61 weeks ago?
why am i even bothering?
trying to clear up my bookmarks, i stumble across the long forgotten link to livejournal
hello neglected livejournal
July 11th, 2007
something i love is actually being interested in the classes im taking and genuinely enjoy what my professors have to say. wisdom is something i've always really admired and i can only hope to gain it with age.
but i really do feel like ive learned a lot and thats what its all about right? so i guess schools goin good :)
orlando < miami
theres no getting around that
|the quarterly update :-P
May 25th, 2007
been gooone for sooo longgg
today is the day my first car accident would occur. 2.5 years of driving and i commit a dumbass mistake and no my left headlight and hood pay for it. and state farm pays for other stuff.
i knew this day would come but....it was my fault. that part just KILLS ME. :-\
greg and i hve now been together 9 months. and though shit can get a little rough, i love him :)
he didnt have a place up here for the summer so hes living in my apartment...which is a new but good experience.
orlandos pretty gay. almost everyone i know has gotten in trouble with the fucking ucf cops.
just yesterday i finished trying to have my license not be suspended.
fuck the fuckin law, man.
i miss miami people, miami atmosphere, miami breeze, miami palm trees, miami WEEEEEEEED, miami's traffic lights (considering they're actually LOGICAL)
planet smoothie doesn't compare at all to jamba juice.
but i make good tips and so i keep the job.
BUT moving out was one of the best things i could've done for my life. that's why i made the sacrifices i made.
school's fine. im taking trig and meteorology.
then in summer b im taking psychology and sociology.
well see where that gets me.
THE NINTENDO WII IS SWEET.
one last thing, of course. my dad got a job up around the orlando area and so its time to say goodbye to the hardest house ive had to say goodbye to. after 8 years (the longest time ive ever lived in one place) my sunset park townhouse will belong to a stranger. that shit breaks my heart. a month left :-O
and then in august i move to u-house.
pop, lock and drop it, kids
January 24th, 2007
since i last updated my life has completely flipped over.
i left the art institute because no matter what you try to teach me, i will never be a graphic designer. i was born to work with my hands, not a fucking mouse. michelle, you were so right.
ive been wantin to move out since i was like 14.
i applied to ucf and got deferred for the spring term. i honestly expected to get in and so when i found this out, i was devastated.
i was out of options. so i decided on dade or valencia (thats orlandos version of dade).
remember, at this point i am dying to leave my house.
my dad and i fought every single day
one day he got into my car and took three pieces of mine.
one was a gift from deanna, one I MADE in plastics (a class ill never again have to opportunity to take)...how many people MAKE pieces to smoke out of? and the third i had JUST bought and it was a one-hitter that id always wanted.
so this, added to everything else made me force myself to get all my shit straight and move the fuck out.
december was probably the most stressful month fucken ever.
so i started sending all my shit to valencia. i kept telling my parents that it was really gonna happen but they were skeptical about it all, claiming that it was too last-minute and i wouldnt be able to do it all.
whatever. fuck that.
so i quit the best job i've ever had. it sucks cus i worked there for long enough to become a manager and for what? to leave and start from scratch at a new place. gay. such an easy job, too. i will miss jamba
so i actually packed my shit up. and...
ON JANUARY 5TH, 2007, i moved up to orlando. i stayed at gregs dorm for a couple of nights and on that sunday, i was able to move into my apartment.
i live at pegasus landing with deanna.
its nice to be away from my parents.
i can't say i miss them yet, but im sure itll come around.
so since then?
ive been here 2 and some weeks...
i started school at valencia and im taking only 2 courses: u.s.gvnt and college algebra.
ive encountered more obstacles than i expected and its really been taking a toll on me. i've broken down more than once.
but what the fuck, no one ever said this shit would be easy.
i know, i know. but its still hard.
so slowly but surely everything falls into place.
but one big part is missing: A JOB. ive yet to even be called.
i have only $240 in my account.
rent is due at the beg. of feb: $540.
sallie mae (my stafford loan) is waiting on a transcript that Ai never fucking sent.
yea, everything seems to be screwed up.
as i write this i dont know whats gonna happen to me.
i don't know where ill be at any point in my future.
I DID IT.
some other things on my ever-growing to-do list is mend all my broken friendships.
ive taken care of most but the hardest one has yet to be resolved.
nor do i know how ill go about it but it's been tearing me apart.
oh and i turned 19 yesterday.
December 15th, 2006
why do these things have t happen. it seems all too familiar.
amerra was one of the liveliest people id ever met. her and i were never very close but the times i spent with her will be kept in my heart. the more i see things like this go on the more i realize how feeble lives reall can be. why do certain things have to happen?
not even six months ago i found myself in the same situation. wishing, praying, hoping it wasn't true. you wish you could turn back time and change something , make it all better. completely unfair.
prayers go out to everyone who knew her..
her family, of course. heather, all the other girl scout kenwood girls.
November 29th, 2006
|THE BEATLES- IN MY LIFE
November 22nd, 2006
some moods i wish i could just capture.
you know those moments you have here and there that make you feel like youre in a movie?
it was so cold.
mmm im excited for this holiday season...
if theres anyone out there reading this who cares about me MAKE SURE someone plays this song at my funeral.
THERE ARE PLACES ILL REMEMBER
ALL MY LIIIFE, THOUGH SOME HAVE CHANGED
SOME FOREVER, NOT FOR BETTER
SOME HAVE GONE, AND SOME REMAIN
ALL THESE PLACES HAVE THEIR MOMENTS
WITH LOVERS AND FRIENDS I STILL CAN RECALL
SOME ARE DEAD AND SOME ARE LIVING
IN MY LIFE I LOVED THEM ALL
BUT OF ALL THESE FRIEND AND LOVERS
THERE IS NO ONE COMPARES WITH YOU
AND THESE MEMORIES LOSE THEIR MEANING
WHEN I THINK OF LOVE AS SOMETHING NEW
THOUGH I KNOW ILL NEVER LOSE AFFECTION
FOR PEOPLE AND THINGS THAT WENT BEFORE
I KNOW ILL OFTEN STOP AND THINK ABOUT THEM
IN MY LIFE I LOVE YOU MORE
IN MY LIFE I LOVE YOU MORE
if i find out this song does not play at my funeral, im gonna be an angry ghost, man.
oh yea, im sick as a motherfucker. good thing i work at jamba juice so i can spread the virus!! yessss
|ok, alright lets party now lke its 95
November 19th, 2006
people come and go in and out of your life. a certain few you should keep around. others, you should definitely eliminate from your memory altogether. shit happens. "youve got to roo-o-o-oll with the punches to get to what's real".
im almost 19. 2006 is close to its end. with that comes huge change for me.
i pray and constantly hope that thing's go as i want them to.
i love the discovery channel, bitches.
its almost thanksgiving and im excited. the cold makes me excited, believe it or not.
i was reading livejournal entries from a year ago...hahaha. as usual, im still so much the same but at such a compltely different point in my life. lots of room for maturity growth and it was fulfilled, although others may disagree...
i consider myself responsible, and very capable.
ive just been trying deperately to prove to my parents that i can so they can support my decision.
One in a million,
Two is a crowd,
Three is company,
I spent all night trying,
To remember your address,
Drawing lines around your body,
Making marks on the mucky floor
Five little fingers,
Six digit fix,
My lucky seven,
There are eight steps to my hips
Why did we have to meet,
On the night I lost my head?
You found me indiscreet,
On the night I lost my head,
You found me in the street,
On the night I lost my head
|been gone for so long...
November 15th, 2006
ill take the cobwebs that have collected off of livejournal and say hello.
that week that i talked about in the last entry (nearly 2 months ago) owned.
went to islands of adventure and had the best time id ever had there
went all around orlando
started semester #2 :-\
saw the world move :)
had a beautiful day at the beach
had to buy a new tire for my car :-\
big fight with my dad
he's still got the mentality of a 6-year old sometimes
was the most confused ive been yet...i still am
got advice from someone i can trust :)
went to texas de brazil for the first time.
had the strangest saturday of my life
got rid of a lot of shit
went to orlando again
saw julia!! :) and jafar :)
saw the lost comedies of william shakespeare and was pretty disappointed
enjoyed the cold front
shopped too much!
stole too much
smoked too much
took care of business:
(you see, i realized that ai isnt the school for me and ive decided to transfer elsewhere.. im aiming for ucf but its nervewracking. that is a VERY LONG STORY made VERY SHORT.)
had a blast on halloween, saw more people than i expected to see...
unfortunately, had to leave
i made it home in almost 3 hours and only used up half a tank :)
3 months. 4 months? whichever. im happy as hell
cold beach day!
bought a grinder and a new piece. his name is ziggy. id be happy to introduce you to him if you give me a chance :)
saw a whole bunch of movies.
- UM football players are really crazy people, man
- high tides is a ripoff
- try everything once. give shit a chance
- some things just don't belong anymore. its just change. its not a bad thing or a good thing. its just unavoidable.
- time flies!
i missed bss and bang but im hoping to make up for it!
- lady sovereign
- snow patrol
as for jamba, i decided to stay till i move (if i move).
truth is, the stores fucked. with all the people that left, i just dont know.
poor jamba. the end.
one last thing
i fucking hate my period
September 24th, 2006
for the first time im going alone on a sort of long trip an i couldnt be more excitedddd yyyyyaaayyyy
a week! for me and my baby.
just one wonderful, carefree, responsibility-free PARENT FUCKING FRRRRREEEEEE week and i vow to make it an incredible week.
summed up in two words:
whee, nigga, WHEE
so ill see everyone in a week.
September 19th, 2006
well the time has come.
i finally have a laptop. ea bitch. it is, however, a mac which i wish i didnt have to resort to but under my conditions, its what's most convenient. ive wasted a good 2 and some hours on it already...
i really shold be on my way to school though.
i have finals this week.
im really happy that my caca class comes first cause i simply cannot even wait until this shit is fucken over with
and an enjoyable project for thursday.
i woke up today with sharp pain under my right rib. i dont know what its from but i felt and still feel like ass. at first i thought it might be appedicitis or some shit but i dont think ts anything THAT serious
besides the average daily fight with my parents and the looooooooong and tiring work shifts, im enjoying life.
being apart is pretty hard but its completely worth it
im going to orlando next week for gregs birthday and i cant waittttt
i gotta go cause i have a lot to do today
wheee for the new comp
August 28th, 2006
MY COMPUTER WORKS AGAIN!
it's close to september or two thousand and six and the one thing ill never be fully able to emphasize is how much time flies.
the last time i wrote was LATE MAY and since then:
yea theres that.
cant forget dee, michelle and i's 2006 gift to the school, forever changing the appearance of the front of killian.
tripped on acid :)
PARKING TICKET!(beach) -$18
went to see the titanic exhibition.
was working like A MOTHAFUCKA.
LEARNED HOW TO DRIVE STICK LIKE A PRO. :)
fell in love :)
GOT TOWED! -$131
italia won the world cup!
coincidentally, this happens one day after the year mark of my grandfather's passing. he DID love that soccer.
STARTED SCHOOL. ai is cool. dont know ANYONE there but im learning to get used to it.
SPEEDING TICKET! turnpike south. 110 mph in a 60 zone. ouch. -$323.
actually, SERIOUSLY, FINALLY became a citizen. only took 9 years...</sarcasm>
hahahahaha the night we got caught...
lost a dear friend which was incredibly tough. this is the fourth death i've dealt with and it hurt more than any other i've known.
R.I.P. NIDIA GUZMAN. love you.
skipped school for the first time :-O.
tuna breath :)
WENT TO BUSCH GARDENS! greg and i drove our happy asses to tampa and rode every single roller coaster. great day.
got a's and b's on my midterms.
08.18.06 had an awesome night.
dealt with the hardest thing i've ever been faced with.
lost my mind. took a last minute, 1-day trip to orlando. love, man. completely worth it.
that brings me to now.
been at jamba now for about 6 months..
dont really know how much LONGER ill be there for, though cause id like to be making more money...
maryanne says i should work at red lobster...idk. i want the MONEY that witressing makes, i just don't like the actual job :-\ haha.
school's getting better. i guess.
i miss my boo.
May 20th, 2006
my computer is broken.
life without it has been...different..
in late april i got a new car...hyundai elantra 2006 and its gonna be my first owned car :)
working hard to support this as well as other things.
like prom. prom was a fucking blast. yea there were imperfections throughtout the night but fucken shit it happens. all turned out ok and i couldnt have asked for anything better.
sunrise was awesome :)
also, last tuesday i cut my hair 12 inches and donated it to locks of love :) i feel sooooo free my hair was sooo long. its awesooome
ive been in such a gooood mooood
work is awesome.
this is my favorie tinme of year....SUMMERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
im going to Ai....and i couldnt be happier :)
im graduating...and i couldnt be happier
im graduating...and i couldnt be sadder
every bit of high school was a learning experience, and i know shit is only gonna get harder from here on.
but the rewards will be even greater.
give it up for the class of 2006, much much love
it was dandy while it lasted.
but im fuckin ready for a change. :-D
|IIIIIIIIIIT'S AAAALLLLRIGHT, CAUSE IM....
April 18th, 2006
i always knew to have faith in adult swim :)
saved by the bell, how i missed thee
yes<333333 a reason to turn my tv onnnnn!
\m/ :) \m/
April 15th, 2006
mid march and on..
+ got my own bank account :)
+ i rank 244 in my class...my sister was like, 13..
+ saw failure to launch
+ went to the fair :) :) :)
+ didn't throw up at the fair! :)
+ was never really in my 6th period
+ got sick as fuck
+ saw "quiet riot" at sunset
+ spent too much money increasing the music collection :-\ :)
+ had my interview at Ai in ft. lauderdale :) it was awesomee
+ bloint #2 :)
+ sprink motherfucking break!
+ got terrible service it seems EVERYWHERE
+ hit 0400 on LOA bill count :) :)
+ shannon got one of my bills :) :) :)
+ beachhh (yeaa boiii<33) :)
+ visited miami ink :)
+ yoga again :)
+ danced :)
basically a lot of :)'s
and a lot of work and gym in between it all...
p.s. i fuckin love driving at night...2-3 am works best :)
March 15th, 2006
dear neglected livejournal,
i owe you an apology. i have indeed abandoned you like i claimed i never would. but in this case, it's not a "myspace" thing...'cause i barely go on myspace either. it's not even that my life is one crazy hectic busy world...it's not.
life is swell?
+ got a job at jamba juice :)
+ saw brokeback mountain
+ got food poisoning for the first time!
+ got a cold
+ went to ska brawl
+ skipped too much school
+ had a memorable juice and watched the yellow submarine
+ reminisced about middle school
+ my dad traded the nissan sentra for the honda civic
+ vandalized :)
+ went to see CIRQUE DU SOLEIL: VAREKAI :) :)
+ went to MARLEY FEST (and it was awesomeeee)
+ walked out of class, got a refferal(sp??), haha, then talked myself out of it :)
+ BLOINT! :)
+ went to the doctor for the first time in 4 or 5 years
+ t.p.'ed michelle's car :-P
...has otherwise been uneventful
i've been at jamba juice for almost a month now and i honestly couldn't be happier. everything is better: pay, hours, co-workers, and ESPECIALLY the customers :) SUCH an improvement.
i must say i enjoy being a senior. fcat was sweet. and the escape on tuesday was a nice adrenaline rush.
however, i have far too many absences and i'm even scared my credits may be at risk...lame.
i can't stop fighting with my parents!!!!!!!!!
|ska brawl recap
February 11th, 2006
so last night was ska brawl.
for starters, some tips for the stupid ft. lauderdale kids...
1. it's ska. we skank, not jump.
2. you do NOT crowd FUCKING surf during a rocksteady band.
3. get the fuck off the stage, no one wants to catch your fat ass.
4. TAKE FUCKING TURNS!!!!! YOU CAN'T HAVE THAT MANY FUCKING PEOPLE IN A PIT!!!
5. you guys suck
other than that, it was ...SWELL :)
missed the first band..
the crowd ruined westbound train...
to think that almost 2 years ago watching westbound train was DECENT...
go jimmy go
was actually skankable: a couple of kids made a smaller pit off to the
side with at least SOME regulation...and if some kid didn't know how to
do that shit right they got kicked out.
then mustard plug :).
never disappointing. NEVER.
omfg screamed my lungs out during every single song and almost passed out.
the crowd was RIDIIIIIICULOUS! I COULDN'T BREATHE. upchuck even rose up in my throat, haha (how sweet)
yea it was pretty bad but i had to be there.
after their set i waited near where the band was...
and this is where things get amazing.
i had pictures of dave, brandon and jim from the april show
i had tried going in the room but they didn't let me BUT i wanted them signed so i tried slipping them under the door.... the door opened and they saw me and DAVE SAYS "GET IN HERE!!!"
:) so michelle joined me in the room and they were
just chillin there, drinking beers, talking, etc. and it was just them
and the two of us. needless to say, i got them signed and i made small
talk w/ dave and colin. it was just amazing. they take the cake. no
pictures this time but it was worth it. and michelle, you're welcome :)
haha this basically made my night.
the toasters played as they always do...GREAT!
i can't say i enjoyed their set as much but still, amazing.
finally we left and i got home at about 1:30...and my curfew was 11 cause im sick :-X
needless to say im grounded and it sucks cause im missing
- know how today
- amerra's party
- tegan & sara cd release at the district
but my parents will just never learn their lesson...